Had a good day, everyone?

First of all, I'd just like to wish Eid Mubarak/ Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin to everyone. I'm like a few weeks late but thats okay anyway :)

School's been okay lately. Havent been able to keep up with any kdramas.

However,.....

1. Can't wait for Heaven's Postman, starring Jaejoong and Han Hyo Joo to come out. Man is Han Hyo Joo one lucky girl or what to be the lead actress?
2. Lee Jun Ki payed for his Taiwan concert. Now this guy knows how to keep a promise. Gotta respect that.
3. Kim bum might go to UK after his activities in Japan finish. He'll be doing a photoshoot here, I believe..
4. I want to know what the court's decision is regarding the DBSK lawsuit.
5. Lee Dong Wook has entered the military to start his military service!!

Okay, 5 should be enough. I have been seriously addicted to allkpop.com because I think its the best place to get up to date news on everything k-related!

And have you heard Colours and Harmony by Jaejoong and Micky? Pure awesomeness (I know, this isnt even a word XD) and the MV is so cute!

I am so annoyed!!

Its not like I don't know how to write 4000characters/800words/47lines.

I have written MORE than this and yet still do BETTER.

I DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

Thing is, THERE IS NO FORMAT,

THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG,

AND ITS SUPPOSED TO BE PERSONAL.

PERSONAL.

P E R S O N A L.

and that is why its called a personal statement.

6 drafts and still not done.

I am going to sleep.

Sometimes I feel like giving up

but I know I shouldn't.

There's nothing to lose anyway. Well, there are some things, but nevermind. My mind is messed up and I can't think straight. The only good thing about being here is the fact that I can cry whenever I want and noone cares. But that is also one of the bad things about being here. Sigh.

I wish someone could just work out the probabilites for me and then tell me what my chances are. My grammar is getting worse, I feel bad and eventhough I know my world is NOT falling apart, it feels like everything is crumbling away. What do I do now?

Raya please come and go quickly. Please just be a quick shot in the heart, not a slow and painful stabbing.

Extract (http://www2.warwick.ac.uk/study/undergraduate/courses/depta2z/economics/l100):

Typical Offer (A/AS Levels):
AAA + AS level B (or C as a fourth A level) or A level AAAB for successful applicants taking 4 A levels inc. Maths and Further Maths. Applicants are encouraged to avoid combinations of subjects with significantly overlapping curricula such as Economics and Business Studies.

Sigh

Cinta, by Acha Septriasa and Irwansyah, OST Love Is Cinta.

Finally got round to changing the sad song on my blog to this one. No, I'm not lovestruck. I tend to avoid that, but anyway, its a nice song and it makes me look more composed in times of stress because I tend to feel calmer when I think of this song. Its really nice. Can't find it anywhere, so I think I might just need to get the album, OST Love is Cinta.

Kpop now is just really... messy.

DBSK, then Jay of 2PM. Its just.. out of control. Hope everything settles down after a while.

3 days in uk

its called trying to GET INTO UNI. Thats what its all about now.

What I want are the simple things in life

I want to be able to fast a whole month in Brunei. To be woken up every morning, to eat good food (in moderation, of course) because if you know you gain weight during Ramadan and Syawal, you know how it went wrong. I want to celebrate raya in Brunei, to breathe the same fresh air that my family breathes everyday, to share the space that they are in.

Unfortunately I can't. But let the celebrations go on; I know we are under the same sky and on the same Earth although the time difference makes it feel as if I am in a totally different world. The same sun shines everyday on us, so I know we must be close.

Have a splendid Ramadan.

Back to UK again

After one year, and after balik2 ulang alik Brunei-UK, one would think that I would get used to it but no. The first day always feels the worst. Well, at least I survived a year. That has to be something, right?



Well we touched down at 6.15am UK time/ 1.15pm Brunei time. On the way to Chelt I spotted a dog and then it hit me, I am now in the country that has kuyuk yang either pengganas atau luan friendly. I do not like them. It made me realise how much I am traumatised by them. There was this one time in Brunei when a cat jumped nearby and I just literally jumped in fear. I am traumatised and easily startled by any furry moving animals nowadays.

Sigh. Puasa from 4.16am to 7.56pm tomorrow. Lessons also start tomorrow. I am so not looking forward to it. This is so not happening. Its just surreal right now.

Saya sangat sangat sangat rindu rumah. 2 bulan in Brunei and I have completely forgotten what its like to be here.. and sort of by myself. I have also turned into the very whiny brat that I used to be. Hahaha.

I actually wanted to sleep just now but since I fear jetlag and because the people in my neighbouring rooms are busy unpacking, I can't really sleep. Maybe this is a good thing. I'll just go to sleep early tonight then.

Unw I think I should have stayed in London for a bit to have a bit of fun. I mean, it would have made me less homesick. But then again I wouldn't want to take the train to paddington, or take the train from paddington to cheltenham.

I am sooo tired. Tired, tired, tired.

Sigh.

Take care everyone :)